Stop auditioning for other people’s lives. Whether it’s a job interview, a business partnership or a potential mate, stop focusing the majority of your attention on whether YOU are good enough for THEM. Stop wearing masks and molding yourself into the person you think other people want you to be.
You be you. When you are trying to make a good impression, don’t forget to genuinely ask yourself – with an open mind – what value others bring to your life as well. Is the job, the partnership or the relationship good enough for YOU?
I used to want nothing more than to fit in. There was always something. In middle school, my legs were too fat, I was too ugly, I was too nice, I was a shit talker…Everything I did was wrong. It didn’t even make sense. People went out of their way to make my life miserable…and I know, it sounds really dramatic, but they really did.
They created fan clubs and xangas with the goal of hating on me. They created fake screen names posing as me and talked shit to my closest friends. I never understood what I did that possessed people to be so cruel, and I still don’t understand to this day. Thinking about this still makes me sad and I feel a really strong urge to reach out to the person who created the blog and just ask, “Why?”
But I won’t.
It still hurts, though.
You are now entering the void.